Throwing in the Towel

Welp. It's confirmed. I'm definitely going to Thailand in a couple months. I'm both excited and scared. I'm both nervous, eager, and hesitant. I'm ready to experience everything there is to experience while there. However, I am HONESTLY scared. I'm scared of not getting along as well as I had originally planned. I'm scared of the natives not accepting me for who I am b4 judging me based on my skin complexion and stereotypes. (trust me, it will happen @ least once while i'm there... I've been dealing w/ this issue my whole life) I'm scared that something will happen here while i'm gone and there wont be anything i can do about it. i'm worried about everything, i guess. But i've decided that i will continue to write in my other blog the whole time i'm gone. Hmm.. I WOULD say i would write in here about the interesting things that happen while i'm gone, but let's just say i'm kinda disappointed w/ the process in which this 2L Blog is going. Wait... wat process? When was the last time anyone wrote in it other than me, gail, and a select few people? Idk. I've even run into a few folks around campus and told them to just simply put how their friggin day went Hmm. Guess they forgot. Now I'm basically giving up on the 2L Blog, u guys. (sad, but true) I've tried. I did my best. I guess u could say i'm throwing in the towel...

Take The Quiz

I found this site called quizfarm.com and came across who i was "supposed" to be in highschool. Please, people, take the quiz and i'll share my results with u....

it Begins

School. It begins... TomoRroW. Yup. It begins tomorrow and I am nowhere near ready. GoD!! One more week, P-Lease?! Hmph. No answer. Guess i have no choice, huh? Ah well. I'm not gonna fret. Anyway, I've been doing a whole lot of thinking (what's new) and now I'm more confused than I was before I started thinking. One, I've been thinking about how I'm going to put together my schedule at Hi-Tech, and what i should do about Imo's. Should I stay? Should I quit? Should I pick up both days at hi-tech instead? I mean, it would be helpful. Reason being, I wouldn't have to be at work as early as I would at Imo's. SEcondly, the hours are pretty decent. Third, I would get paid more there for the same amt of time. Hmm... I mean, I guess it's a no-brainer, but it's almost like i'm scared to break away from Imo's. I've almost been there 4 years. 4 YEARS!!! That's a long time to be AnyWhere! Well, i dont know. I'm gonna give it a little more thought tomorrow b4 i go to hi-tech to try to get it together. Well, after 4 whole days, I FINALLY met my roommate. Wierd thing is, she's been living in the apartment since May and it looks as though no one even lives here. SEcondly, She's 25 and still living in an on-campus apartment. Third, i hadn't seen her at ALL until tonight. Ah well. It's all good, i guess. She seems nice and she has a cute accent. I basically asked her about some of my stuff i put in the living room. She's like, "i don't care. Do whatever u want. cool. It's fine. Blah blah blah. But i'm tired so i'm gonna go back to sleep." The converstion couldnt have been longer than maybe 2-3 minutes. Hmm.. weird. Now... Ever since i have moved into the apartment, i've been contemplating my relationship with bobby more than ever. I don't know whats going on with me. And the thing is, the whole problem with the relationship is ME!!! I can't configure whether or not it's just an internal conflict or something serious. It's like, Im having the same dilemma i did once before. However, there is a little twist to it. Before, I just couldn't decide whether or not i wanted to be with him or date. This time around, it seems as though my feelings for him have changed. I feel like i not only want to take things slower, but take a few paces back. Maybe im really not ready for this relationship yet. Now i'm fighting whether or not i want to be with HIm... or alone. Just alone. Not with any purpose. But i don't know WHY i feel this way! I don't want to kiss sometimes. I don't want to fool around. I just want to be around him... SO weird. However, I still care about him. i still love him. i still wait for him to call me when he says he is... What's up with that? What's up with ME?!!? Man, After one dilemma ends, another one begins.PS. If anyone has insight on this matter, PLEASE enlighten me.

Quarantine

I'm sick... Very sick. Okay, Monday night my throat started acting funny. Tuesday. I had to work at the Chase and didn't get home until close to 12. This time, my nose started getting stuffy. By the time I woke up the next morning, I was definitely SICK! I kept blowing my nose the night b4 into the morning. Damn, this sux. I swear, I thought i was gonna blow up. It was somethin' fierce last night into this mornin', too. I'm feelin a little bit better today, though. God, I have to work at the Chase tomorrow, but I still have a pretty bad cough. I wonder if i can get rid of it by tomorrow. I hope so. Let's move on to somethin' a little less depressing. Well, I've been giving a few things a lot of thought (go fig). As far as getting a dog is concerned, it's obvious that I cant get one until I come back from Thailand. However, when I first come back, I STILL can't get one. Why? Well, I have to have my own place first. So.... I have to make sure that whatever job (or jobs) I have b4 I leave for Thailand, I need to make sure that my positions are insured when I come back. I've made up my mind that I can't take it easy when i come back. I have to speed things up. I have to make money right away so that I can get a place. But then i started thinking some more. Where am I gonna find a 1bdr apt for less than 500 bucks?? 'Cause I can't afford that, no matter WHAT job i have. (unless i get a tight-ass intership or some'n) Hmmm... none around here. Yes, i COULD get a roommate, but are they gonna have a job secured when they come back as well? It's hard to count on people, so that's something I will have to figure out when the time comes. Hmmm. Also, I've been thinking of the tattoo issue. As far as me getting one, I'm not getting one until i move out for good. I had been thinking about this for a while. How am I going to make a life-long decision like that when i can't take care of myself? Well, that's my reasoning on that tip. Call it a cop-out, but i'm for real. Who knows. I might decide NOT to get one after all. All i know is that the DoG comes first, damnit!!! ~P.S. I've written down a list of dog possibilities: 1) Yorkshire Terrier, 2) Shi Tzu, 3) Miniature Pinscher (was my 1st choice 'til i found out how noise it was:-\) , basenji, bolognese, dachshund, norfolk terrier, toy fox terrier, toy manchester terrier, cockapoo, chihuahuas, jack russell terrier, and toy american eskimos. that's not too long of a list, is it?

Freshman Year At Webster Taught Me...

~ That if you DO have time to study, you should take the time to do so.
~ You should not tell your parents ANYTHING that you have to think about twice
~ Living on Campus is Greeaaattt!!!
~ Sex is good
~ Coming in @ 7am isn't always the smartest idea, just because you have the freedom
~ The BP-motha-freakin'-C is STUPID
~ Living with complete strangers can, and always will, be very interesting
~ No matter where you relocate to, you will always make new friends
~ College isn't THAT hard, especially if you try
~ If you don't live on campus, you won't have the same experience as those who do have
~ College is definitely an adventure and a place for whole, new experiences! Take ALL of it in... just not @ one time.

Things Freshman Year At Webster Taught Me

- Your floor is your most valuable possession.
- If you're a tour room, you better not sleep naked.
- Living with someone you didn't know all that well ain't so bad.
- After a while, even Blimpie's gets old.
- A lot of drama can be packed into a very small space.
- Having a car is very very nice.
- If you don't have a car, everything can be within walking distance. If you have the time.
- Black is a state of mind. (Thank you, BPC)
- GTV is one part programming, two parts total blank screen.
- If you work at 6 am, don't try to stay awake all night. It will only end badly.
- The 24-hour McDonald's is a 24-hour DRIVE-through.
- Substituting "bips" for "bitch" is funny.
- Campus Rec is your friend. You will like Campus Rec. PARTICIPATE IN CAMPUS REC ACTIVITIES!
- If there is someone on your floor nicknamed "Cutter," well, uh....yeah I got nothing.
- "Don't be hatin'" should NOT be said by foreign people.
- There are at least 38478356 ways to get to Ronnie's 20.
- Ronnie's does NOT show movies after 1 am.
- Devon Schwab is everywhere.

Ok, guys, now it's your turn...what did you learn this year? You can either edit this post and add your own or make a comment.

so yeah...

Yeah, went downtown to put in some applications and i guess i have a job now... thing is, i don't know if i really want it. it's a little hectic there. i mean, it wouldn't be bad if i knew that i would get some fat tips and stuff, but i'm not sure about this job. Shyt. I mean, i still have my other two jobs, but i really need something else so i don't have to have so many jobs..god, i need money bad.
~Depressed.

What happened to this floor?

A poem by Matt.

Back in '04, this hall wasn't a bore.
People were out and about on the floor.
But now in '05, it's like we're barely alive,
What happened to the fun that used to make 2L thrive?!

There's no one around now, there are doors always closed,
And campus events?? Ha! Just forget about those!
To see these things happen is, well, frankly a shame
When at the start of the year we were at the top of our game.

Could we blame it on KT, our very own RA?
She's just not around now, but I guess that's OK.
It's not her fault that 2L's gone to shit.
There's something called apathy, and I blame this on it.

Come on, you guys! Remember the days
When we all ate together, and fun in fun ways?
I once used to think that 2L was the top
Until coolness level took a serious drop.

The Easter Egg Hunt From Hell...The Dance Party From Heaven

For those of you who aren't in the loop (and by "loop" I mean the "what Bailey and Matt spend their time doing loop"), here's an update:

So Campus Crusade for Christ, or some other similar Christian group hosted this University-wide egg hunt. You might have noticed; everyone got a freebie in their mailbox. So apparently there were also like 500 eggs hidden all over the campus, all with raffle tickets inside. The idea was you bring your tickets to the Passion of the Christ and for each egg you find you get a chance to win something.

So I'm thinking that like, they went all to this work, these are going to be some sweet prizes. I might even get my hands on a free iPod. Or something better. So Bailey has like 17 already, and I'm like, "Hey! I want more! I only have one!" She tells me that they hid an extra 300 the night previous, and so we don our outside garb, grab some flashlights, and plunge into the darkness.

The problem is, to desperate people in the dark, every rock and tree branch looks like an Easter egg. About 15 minutes into our search, we finally strike gold: An egg in a bush! As we grab it, the girl who coordinated the whole hunt comes up the path. Fortunately Bailey knows her and we pump her for information. Fresh on some new leads, with renewed spirits, on we search. Bailey calls out when she sees an egg shell upturned on the ground, we head for it, but no luck: it's open. Hopelessly, she turns it over and behold! The raffle ticket is still inside! The lamebrained idiot who stumbled upon that rare gem cared only for the candy! Little did he know that while he was boosting his cholesterol, we would be listening to some phat beats.

We stumbled upon (noticed I did not say "found") about three more eggs, with a total of five finds for the whole night. What a bust.

Needless to say, we went to the movie in high spirits. Those high spirits were soon dampened by the er..."mood" of the film, but we were able to stay until the raffle began. I got quite a shock when the prizes were pulled out: a play-dough set, a Finding Nemo towel, and other various trinkets that cost no more than.......$5?!?!?!?!

Oh well. It didn't even really matter anyway, Bailey was the only one who won anything, TWO things to be exact, and I walked away empty-handed. What a bust.

THAT WAS WEDNESDAY. THEN FRIDAY CAME.

Dee's hip-hop dance party got off to what seemed to be an honestly depressing start. But once 10:30 rolled around, the fun got under way. The next two-and-a-half hours was a virtual non-stop groovefest. I must admit I was a little downhearted when I discovered that my song, "Shake Ya Tailfeather" wasn't on the playlist, but nevertheless the night was a rousing success.

Hello there...again

Thanks in part to Shara's "Check the blog" campaign (thanks Shara), I thought you might all like to finally here from me again, since I know you are all on the edge of the seat in suspense for my witty barbs and scathing humor.

So 18 credit hours has certainly proven to be rather tough, plus the part-time job...it's been all I can do to just get four hours of sleep a night!

Ok not really. I'm over dramatizing my life. I've actually been having a much better semester so far. I've been getting up earlier (and actually eating breakfast)! Getting most of my homework done way ahead of schedule, and even finding enough time to get some personal writing out of the way.

Now for the bad news. I am sick. Yes, yes I know, you can all have sufficient time to dry your eyes and feel terribly sorry for me. There, all better? Good, I'll continue. I went to the Health Services today, and apparently have some sort of white pocket or something in the back of my throat. Yum! And I've been really tired lately. Oh well, I will have to deal. But I am not opposed to accepting any chicken soup or other acts of kindness.

And I just want to say, Les Miserables is playing at the Fox until the 18th, and especially if you have never seen it before, the Fox is the perfect place. If you don't want to shell out $60 for really great seats, you can at least spend $20 and still see the show. Any way, it is WELL worth it.

I'd love to hear about everyone else's semesters...

Hi from Dee

Hi everybody...... um..... Date Auction is February 16th um.... if anyone is living on campus next year and you are interested in being an RHA executive board member, come and talk to me for more details. Also, today and tomorrow during lunch you can buy more Crush soda, but so far WE have the most sales. And tonight, in Marlettos at dinner time, we're going to have a Fat Tuesday dinner party. Free King cake and beads. And for the ladies, you don't have to flash for beads!!! THEY ARE FREE!!!! And for fellas, it's still free. lol. Holla
~Dee

Mardi Gras Weekend

Hey guys!!! I hope everyone had a fun Mardi Gras weekend. I know mine was very.... um... interesting and action-packed. By now I think everyone has seen my boyfr....I mean, ex-boyfriend. (YEs, I know I introduced him as my bf, but it's a long story) I wanna know what your first impressions of him are, even though the ones from most of the guys are that he's a scary guy. Not only that, but I wanna know what everyone did for Mardi Gras weekend. I hope everyone got tons of beads!!! lol. L8er.